It’s no surprise that most of us (myself included), seek out healing modalities because we want to feel better.
We want to stop feeling crappy and shitty, whether that’s on an emotional, mental, physical or spiritual level.
We’d like to feel GOOD.
We seek happiness and peace.
That’s 100% reasonable
For those who are waking up, we want off the merry-go-round of emotional drama and stress that consumes so many people.
Except of course, as per my example above, it doesn’t always work that way.
Life isn’t formulaic, like a Hollywood movie.
There isn’t a beginning, middle, and then a happy-ever-after. The “good” and the “bad” aren’t easily identifiable characters.
And healing isn’t always about feeling better
It’s about working through the most important issues so you can continue on your journey.
Sure, ultimately the goal is to create freedom in our lives. To live in a state of peace and happiness.
But to get there, it isn’t about scaling one or two major challenges and then you’re done!
Humans are a lot more complex than that
Our emotional traumas and wounding tends to live in pockets and layers of our physical body, instead of a neat series of shoeboxes.
Gosh, now THAT would make the whole healing journey easier, wouldn’t it?!
All of our stuff tends to blend together
Everything we’ve never dealt with swirls and blends as one.
If you think of the example of a jar into which different sized pebbles and rocks have been added, and then sand and dirt fill up the spaces in between.
If you add water as well, only then is the jar properly filled up. Well, our stuff kind of blends like that.
So you can have a part of your childhood trauma sitting with your early adult wounds, and another piece hanging out with the end of your first serious relationship, and another hanging out with your workplace issues with your boss.
And so on!
Which means that once you begin the courageous work of unwinding and healing your stuff, it’s probably not going to unfold in a neat and tidy fashion.
Holding that expecation can cause you more stress and suffering, instead of just allowing things to flow as they present.
You might have heard me say at the end of your session something like:
This being (i.e. YOU) can integrate the changes from this healing gently and easily.
Which is how assist you to process the work we’ve done together, without a healing crisis showing up.
But sometimes, healing crises happen anyway
I have them, too. The body has an innate wisdom that we don’t always understand on a conscious level.
Quite a few years ago, I had a Kinesiology session with my own practitioner and several days later, I felt worse than I’d felt in a long time.
I was in the process of healing an autoimmune disorder, and suddenly all of my worst symptoms from that condition were back.
It was terrifying and very uncomfortable!
After a couple of bad days, it occured to me that perhaps what I needed was more healing support, instead of tolerating the symptoms.
Luckily I was able to get a session that week.
Because even though the body initially might feel like it’s doing okay after a healing, there might be an unexpected trigger that sends you off the “deep end”. Back into your stuff.
The best thing you can do in that situation is to go see your practitioner again, as soon as you can.
Because as you work through the layers, it can be a bit like unpacking a Russian doll – you won’t always know what’s coming next on your journey.
So if that happens to you, don’t panic
You’re on the right path. You’re doing the right work.
It’s just that something has been a bit more than you expected in terms of what’s shown up for you.
Ultimately, we do get to that place of feeling better. But it’s just not a straight forward journey!
And your most powerful tool on this journey?
Acceptance, that this is how it is.
Nothing is wrong. Everything is unfolding perfectly, in its own divine timing.
Sometimes when new layers show up to be healed, what we’re being told is “there’s more to understand here”.
So if you keep in mind that your body is communicating with you in the only way it knows how?
Then instead of seeing more symptoms as a problem, perhaps you can see them as sign posts offering a pathway back to full health and wellbeing.
Amanda (Ambha) Roberts is a Kinesiologist, Intuitive Healer, educator and facilitator based in Melbourne, Australia. She offers Kinesiology sessions both in-person and via Skype/Zoom all over the world.
Amanda facilitates the popular Facebook group - Empowerment for Sensitive Peeps - to support all highly sensitive people and emerging empaths. She is also the co-creator of Adventures of Staria, which includes a series of Staria cards, and an upcoming book for children (including inner children).